Blogmas Day 13

The weight loss battle lately is quite discouraging. From January of last year to about May I managed to lose fifty pounds, with a low carb diet. Don’t get me wrong, fifty pounds is very good, though I need to lose another fifty so my urologist can do urostomy surgery. With spina bifida there are some days which I feel great and I exercise, and there are some days where I just don’t feel well and don’t exercise. Presently, I still am following a low carb diet, though I’ve introduced more carbs into my diet then before. I still try to keep my carb intake to under 100 grams per day, and most of the time I accomplish this goal. I am going to lower my carb intake to around 40 grams per day to see I can jump start the weight loss, while I incorporate stationary bike exercise 4-5 times a week for 30 minutes. Here’s to more weight loss.
Until Next Time… Take Care…

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Blogmas Day 12

On Monday night I went out to do some night photography, honestly I didn’t think it well all that well. Looking on the back of the LCD screen the photos were not coming out how I expected them to. So I thought. I was pretty disappointed when I came back on Monday night, I didn’t even bother to upload them onto my MacBook Pro. Those photos were left on my camera until this afternoon, when I decided to upload to my laptop. At first glance they really didn’t look like much, I actually thought I was going to delete them all, there were only a dozen photos or so. Once I had them uploaded into Lightroom I decided to do some editing, that’s when I hit gold. I accomplished what I set out to do, and that was to capture a great night photo on my camera. tend to be hard on myself and I get discouraged often, because of my disability. I need to gather confidence in my abilities and stop second guessing myself. Sometimes something great occurs when we think things are not so going well.
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Blogmas Day 10&11

Since going on disability back in 2008, I have been searching for my purpose in life. For about twenty-five years, my purpose was being a chef, a lofty goal for someone with spina bifida. I more or less accomplished my goal reaching Sous Chef level. Often I wonder how further in my career I could have progressed if I was not born with spina bifida. There were so many goals I wanted to reach, however, the constant battles with health issues eventually forced me to stop working as a chef. Since then I have been working to find my purpose in life part two. Sometimes the second act is better than the first, I can only hope. Lately, I’ve been spending too much time reminiscing on the past, which isn’t a good thing, it just gets me more down and depressed. Compound that with my mobility becoming worse and the fact that I have been using a cane for the last two years, makes me feel at times there’s no hope. I Know feeling hopeless sounds somewhat depressing and sad, but it is how I feel sometimes. My two saving graces are my photography and writing, with the photography progressing more than the writing at the moment, though I plan on changing that soon. Here’s to finding mu new purpose in life…
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Blogmas Day 9

Well we had our first snowfall of the year here in Massachusetts. We got around six inches, which isn’t too bad, I managed to get out a take a few phots of the snow. While I didn’t get too many good pictures, I think I have two or three that are keepers. It’s a bit difficult taking photos when the snow is falling. I am hoping to get out the next few days a do some more photography with the snow, the landscape always looks great with fresh fallen snow.
I finally edited a few photos from this past monday’s super moon. Overall,I am pretty happy with the results, and I’ll post them here in the blog. If you would like to see more of my photography, click on the Instagram button on the top right of the main blog page.
Until Next Time… Take Care…

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Blogmas Day 8

Most of the time having a colostomy isn’t much of a big deal, it does not really bother me, it actually has made my quality of life much better since I’ve had it. There are however, times where it does get somewhat difficult. For the last several weeks I have had trouble getting a good seal on the appliance, after a few days it starts to leaks, which causes a bad odor as well as other issues. I’m not sure if it is because of weight loss or what? The problem is I have a recessed stoma, and it does not stick out of the skin as much. I use a convex stoma appliance which helps the stoma stick out from the skin more. For some reason it has not been working as effectively has it has been. Honestly, it has been frustrating to say the least. Lately I have been changing the appliance every two days or so for the past two weeks. Usually I get at least five days out of the appliance and change the bag every two or three days. I’m not sure what the issue is. I have resorted to taping the edges down with fabric tape to see if helps seal up the edges, unfortunately, it has not worked as well as it has in the past. I’m crossing my fingers, I just changed again a few hours ago, I’m hoping for at least four days.
We are expecting some snow here in Massachusetts starting Saturday afternoon. Maybe I can get out a do some winter photography, I really haven’t done that much photography in the snow so it should be challenging.
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Blogmas Day 6&7

For some crazy reason I’ve been skipping a day with these blogs, not good, it’s not what I set out to do when I decided to do Blogmas. Maybe I just have a bit too on my mind these days? My Christmas shopping is just about done, I just have a few more things to buy. I wish I had more money to buy better gifts, after all, my family helps me out so much I feel I should be buying them nicer gifts. Not that the gifts I buy suck, I would just like to get everyone something nicer. One of these days I’ll make it up to them, for everything they have done for me. They do so much for me, I feel like I’m a burden to everyone. There are times i think to myself that their lives would be so much better without me. It’s crazy to think like that I know, but I wonder how my parents life would be if they didn’t have a son with spina bifida, I wonder how my brother would be if his older brother didn’t have spina bifida. Would their lives be more fulfilling? Or maybe perhaps, everything would remain the same? It’s something which I ponder on occasion. How my life would be different if I didn’t have spina bifida? I can only wonder…
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Blogmas Days 4 and 5 Combined

Okay, so I missed yesterdays blog, honestly it totally slipped my mind as I was trying to figure out where to photograph the supermoon. I did get a few decent shots of the supermoon, and once I’m done editing them, I’ll post some of them here on my blog. The moon was impressive, I have to admit, though the moon is kind of tricky to shoot, I am happy with the results that I have.
Out of all the holidays Christmas is my favorite, though there is a downside. It gets lonely. Sure I have my family around, which is always nice, don’t get me wrong. Trying that special woman to share your life with you when you have spina bifida is, well, just a bit difficult. It seems that a guy with spina bifida who has a catheter and colostomy isn’t actually the greatest catch. It’s not that I have totally given up finding a woman to share my life with, it’s just I do not think it’s in the cards or is going to happen anytime soon.Being an introvert I like my alone time, what I don’t like is constantly being lonely, if that makes any sense. I will still have a nice Christmas, though I cannot help but wonder how things would be if I didn’t have spina bifida. It is a thought that enters my mind often…
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Blogmas 2017 Day 3

Well, trying to photograph the supermoon here in Massachusetts was a failure, there was just too may clouds covering the moon. I actually went into Chestnut Hill just outside of Boston to try to get the moon coming up over the city scape. All is not lost, I still have tomorrow morning and night to try and get a shot of the supermoon. I have to say, I really haven’t have good luck photographing the full moon in the past, it’s either has been raining and or cloudy, enabling me not to get a good photo. I’m not giving up quite yet, I still have some time, wish me luck.
For the past few weeks I’ve been having colostomy issues with gas and foul odor, I’m not sure what’s going on. For the past several months I have been taking an over the counter probiotic, I’m not sure if it’s helping or not. My belly doesn’t hurt and the stoma itself seems fine, but the odor coming out of the stoma is pretty smelly, not C-Diff smelly, smelly non the less. I have an appointment in a few weeks with my infectious disease doctor, so I’ll run it by him to see if I should have any tests done or not, I’m hoping everything works itself out for the better.
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Blogmas 2017 Day 2

I don’t know about yourself, but self-doubt keeps creeping into my head. I’ve been working on a book for about 9 months now, and I keep self-doubting myself on weather to not I should be writing a book, heck, I’m over 70% done. for some very bizarre reason I keep putting off what I believe is a great story. My goal is to finish before the start of the new year, I know I can do it, I just need to stop feeling sorry for myself and deal with the hand which life has dealt me. Easier said than done, I know. For what ever reason I just stopped writing and put it aside just as I was gathering momentum, stupid I know. I don’t know what I’m afraid of. Honestly, I don’t even care if people like it or not I just want the story out there for some one to read. Over the last few months I pushed myself to become a better photographer, and I’m pleased with my progress. Now I have to put forth the effort into my writing, the same way I’ve forced myself to become a better photographer.
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Blogmas 2017 Day 1

Well, it seems I’ve neglected this blog for the past few months, not intentionally mind you. It’s just nothing really has changed since the last time I posted back in July. Perhaps I’m just in a funk, though I could say I’ve been in a funk for quite a while now. There’s been some bumps in the road for the weight loss, though I haven’t gained the weight I lost back. The last 50 funds to lose are going to be a pain in the ass, and it has been.Woodstock Vermont October 21 2017-2
One thing that has been positive is my photography. My photos have been getting better as has my composition, Lightroom, and Photoshop skills. I’ve tried to go out at the minimum once a week to do some photography. It gets me out of the house, and it challenges me to try to take a good photograph. If you’re interested in seeing my photography you can view it on my Instagram account, the Instagram Icon is located on the right hand side of the main page and you can click on it. My main goal this weekend is to try to photograph the supermoon, I missed it last year, so I’m hoping to try to get a few worthwhile photos.Strand Theater Night Clinton m-24
I hope everyone had a Happy Thanksgiving, for those of you who celebrate Thanksgiving. I enjoyed cooking the meal and baking a few homemade pies, being a former chef, I really enjoy it. Thanksgiving was a busy day, as I took care of all the cooking as my mom was sick, though I did have help with the dishes. The Christmas season seems to be in full swing now, and everyone seems just a bit stressed out, for a holiday that’s supposed to be so happy and joyful sure makes some people grumpy and mean.
Stay tuned for more Blooms 2017….. Seabrook Harbor Final Edit

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